Month: November 2012

14 Nov 2012

a black hole, a fairy, and an unending series of wars

A Black Hole is Not a Hole by Carolyn Cinami DeCristofano

One time, in my AP Chemistry class, I needed some extra credit. And by “some” extra credit, I mean a lot of extra credit. The most fun way I earned extra credit? Sewing a little white felt mole from this exact pattern and turning it in for Mole Day. The least fun way I earned extra credit? Making a Powerpoint that explained String Theory.

Although A Black Hole is Not a Hole is a compact, pleasing little science book with illustrations both charming and beautiful, and the scientific explanations are slow and clear without being oversimplified… reading this book felt a little like making that String Theory Powerpoint. This is high science that my brain is just not equipped for. How I ended up in AP Chemistry and not AP English is a great mystery.

Young scientists, allow your brains to grow bigger than mine and enjoy this book. Maybe by the time you are in high school, you won’t need any extra credit.

 

The Fairy Ring or Elsie and Frances Fool the World by Mary Losure

I like a good nonfiction book that exists solely to call attention to an interesting, obscure bit of history that you never would have heard about otherwise. I read a biography of a lady who stole a lot of babies once that I found questionably authoritative and downright horrifying exactly for that reason: reading about these small moments in time, these strangely influential people who have fallen from history’s radar, makes me feel like the universe is vast and interesting.

You’d think I would say that about a book about Black Holes and not about two child trick photographers…. but that’s neither here nor there.

The Fairy Ring is a pleasantly slender history of two young girls who may or may not have actually seen fairies in their backyard, but who did indeed make some trick photos with paper fairies, and those photos indeed did get national press, and the forgery was not revealed until they were both old ladies. It’s an interesting little story and Losure does a good job of calling attention to the strangeness of being a small girl in England, where you have limited agency in your daily life, but maybe have the singular power to materialize fairie-kind.

 

That Mad Game: Growing Up in a Warzone ed. by J.L. Powers

In case black holes and fairies are a little too upbeat for you, might I present to you a collection of narrative essay about children growing up in war zones? This is a weighty read, but worth it – each chapter is a narrative written by someone who has seen war or the effects of war firsthand, and the book as a whole becomes this testament to our world’s violent, violent history. The fact that there are so many wars past and ongoing conflicts is just baffling, especially considering the personal impact. The essay’s authors explore their own childhoods as unwilling players in war – as a Cambodian refugee, the child of a PTSD-addled Vietnam vet, as a civilian in an occupied state, as a potential Taliban recruit, as an orphan.

This book is fascinating, chilling, humbling, and it feels important. This is a small-press book – I hope that it finds as many readers as it can get.

13 Nov 2012

oh the carbs i have baked

Thirty days after Whole30 and I am remembering how eating carbs and sugar just seems to beget more and more and more carbs and sugar… you think you are having an innocent piece of toast, but in truth you are opening your bloodstream and your brain to this idea that you could, at any time, have something delicious. That maybe you even deserve something delicious!

It started with Halloween. I tried to bake some pumpkin cinnamon rolls during the day – as a post-diet celebration – but there was something wrong with my yeast… like, it didn’t bubble, and then, lo and behold, the rolls did not rise. I was already in the kitchen making a royal mess, so I thought I’d bring a treat over to my friend’s party.

Enter: Pumpkin Cupcakes. Martha Stewart’s recipe, natch – she does a good cupcake.

I brought them straight over to the party right away like a good girl, and I only licked the spoon once. P.S. Last sentence, big fat lie. However, I succeeded in Not Coming Home With Any Cupcakes, so all’s well. Right?

… and then there were the biscuits.

I was making some dinner that was going to take too long and I was so so hungry, and wouldn’t some carbs sound nice? Don’t you actually DESERVE some carbs? I used recipe, touted as “The Recipe That Could Salvage Any Dinner for [Insert Male Dining Partner Here]. These biscuits pictured are, actually,  Janssen’s as well – mine were mostly square because I only made a half batch (Good Girl!) and I didn’t want to smoosh my dough around too much and I don’t own a biscuit cutter anyway.

P.S. They did, in fact, please my Male Dining Partner plenty. In fact the phrase “Aww, you made me carbs!” might have been uttered in my kitchen.

Then everything just went to hell.

It was a dark and stormy night. Well, I don’t remember that for sure, but there’s been a hurricane and a Nor’easter, so we’ll just run with it. I had made dinner – I’m sure it was delicious and relatively low carb and healthy. Completely delicious and satisfying.

An hour later, I was making THESE:

Cupcakes, biscuits, then hydrogenated oils stuffed in other hydrogenated oils.

Oh, the shame.

I started writing this post and had to stop myself from making pumpkin muffins.

It’s bad, friends. I shudder at the thought of holiday desserts season, I really do… I am going to come out the other side of December jittering and fat and covered with flour.

12 Nov 2012

2012: week forty-four

November 4 – November 10

A sad week, a tired week, a grumpy week.

Out of curiosity, I browsed through my weekly posts past. I conjectured that I would find the following pattern – 3 weeks good, 1 week bad.

And that is exactly what I found.

Oh, hormones.

Also see: indoor allergies, rain upon rain upon rain, and daylight savings

Reading:

Watching:

  • An episode of Homeland, which everyone has said is amazing, and although it sounded like the opposite of a show I would like, well, I liked it.

Listening To:

  • Libba Bray read Beauty Queens, which is, so far, quite an enjoyable pursuit
10 Nov 2012

chuck close and chuck close

I made it my first 27 years of life without ever hearing about famous living artist, Chuck Close. Heck, I think I may have actually seen some Chuck Close portraits before; still nothing.

And then, last week, I read two books about Mr. Close, and am now an expert, I think.

First, I read Boston-Globe Horn Book Award Winning Chuck Close: Face Book. This book is structured around a school “fieldtrip” – a group of children visiting Mr. Close in his studio and, after studying his life and his work, asking him some rather astute questions. The children had questions about his childhood, his career, his art, etc. It’s a pretty little book, and has an awesome flip book in the middle with portraits you can mix and match.

And then I decided to read Chuck Close Up close by Jan Greenberg and Sandra Jordan, because I didn’t JUST read a biography of the same man the day before. Oh yes I did, that’s what this entire post is about! This book is like a slim picturebook, but there is a surprising amount of text. Where Chuck Close: Face Book is more casual, written in Mr. Close’s own voice, and loosely structured, Greenberg and Jordan present a more traditional biography – a format that allows a bit more depth of content.

What I’m trying to say is that

A) Chuck Close is pretty fascinating and talented, especially his thoughts on his own creative process – he is super down to earth, treats his art like craft, and is constantly adjusting his techniques and mediums to adjust for various mental and physical limitations.

B) Both books are informative, interesting reads, and you can read both back to back and not be bored.

C) It is possible that I saw a wall-sized painting of Bill Clinton and forgot about it. I think I am becoming senile.

09 Nov 2012

these books are weird

I am a fan of the weird, a champion of the weird. You blog people probably know more of my weirdness than most people I know in real life, just because, well, you are also blog people so you are more attuned to the weird, but rest assured – my actual weirdness runs deeeeep. The Boy gets a lot of my weirdness, not all… pretty sure the only people who see the 100% weird are my sisters, and maybe my parents who watched me grow up so they can extrapolate.

Anyway, I was a weird kid who liked weird books for kids, and I continue to like weird books for both adults and kids.

It is saying a lot when a book out-weirds me.

So, without further ado…

Picturebooks that appear to be weird for weirdness sake:


Parrot Carrot
by Jol Temple, Kate Temple and Jon Foye

Cecil the Pet Glacier by Matthea Harvey and Giselle Potter

An allegory-based business book with a title that is both inexplicable and phallic…

Letting Go of Your Bananas by Dr. Daniel T Drubin

Hey, that reminds of another book about bananas that I weeded from a library this week.

As much as I love retro children’s lit, a library is not a Museum of Books – it is time to say goodbye to some real oldies. I looked at this book for awhile and I couldn’t figure out why I though it was so funny, silly, weird.

Then, while I was trying to Google the title of this Banana Book because I forgot it, I realized that I was probably thinking of this awful library book, which is both weird and horrifying. Maybe all books about bananas are inherently questionable?

Anyway, I digress. We will conclude with Dame Darcy’s Handbook for Hot Witches

This book would just be normal teen-nonfiction weird, but if you can read all those swirly little words on the cover, you will see that Hot Witchery includes every skill from “Love Spells,” “Glamour Tips,” and “Banjo Playing?”

Now excuse me, I need to go eat a banana and work on my love potions.

08 Nov 2012

the view from 50,000 feet

I am feeling so scatter-shot lately. My planning is half-assed, my execution is a quarter-assed, and what-exactly-am-I-doing-with-my-life-anyway?

Constantly trying to assess my predicament – am I saying “yes” too much? (Probably) Not listening to my body and my Inner Jessica (Probably). Submitting to procrastination and distraction and laziness and clutter and half-assed-ness? (Probably).

Last night, I had things to do – a social work event, a cool kid-lit event – but I was out late watching poll results the night before and away from my office all day and far from where I needed to be and even before it started snowing, I decided not to go. It felt like the right thing to do, to take a night off to recover.

It felt nice.

But sitting at home is the quickest route to feeling scatter-shot, for feeling like I’m not doing the right activity, procrastinating too much, indulging, distracting myself; when my mental game is off, free time is sometimes what I need but feels like a spotlight is shining on everything that is wrong.

But smart, happy people know that moments are moments, nights are nights, weeks are weeks; your life is more than the sum of every self-disappointment.

If I were to chart out my nights for the past few months – the feeling good nights and the feeling bad ones alike – the boxes would be filled with…

Reading books, lots and lots of them, re-reading, new reading, fiction, nonfiction, “required” and fun. Almost thirty books since August 1, while working full time, without a syllabus.

Taking care of myself and my home and my relationships and spending time with friends

Writing. Writing books, writing book reviews, writing posts, writing emails, writing good versions of all of these things, writing bad versions. Writing that feels good and writing that feels bad.

In Getting Things Done, David Allen talks about looking at your work from different perspectives, in order to keep the day-to-day and the short-term and long-term in some semblance of harmony. My day-to-day – my “runway” in GTD-speak – feels hectic, scattershot, and this is not ideal.

But that imaginary chart of my nights, the one where it looks like Jessica spends her time not worrying, procrastinating, being lazy, being messy, but writing and reading and socializing and just being a human (not a super-human)? That is what I want my life to look like.

The view from 50,000 feet is pretty okay.

 

06 Nov 2012

gone votin’

No blogging today because I’m busy getting my ass out the door early enough to go VOTE!

Hoping there aren’t any outdoor lines at the polls because it’s 31 degrees outside.

See you on the other side of this election!

05 Nov 2012

2012: week forty-three

October 28 – November 3

I have to say, in the absence of multiple jobs and assignments and school breaks, it’s becoming increasingly difficult for me to recall the activities on any given week.

If I was being entirely straightforward in these weekly posts, they would all be a cut-and-paste version of the following:

Wake up, make coffee in the dark, try to get warm, try to wake up, try to write.

Go to work, do work, listen to podcasts.

Come home, make dinner, watch some TV, call some people, read some books, clean some things.

In bed by 10:30.

That’s it.

And this is what I look like for most of it, because it is perpetually fah-reez-ing in my house. Brr.

Reading:

  • Books about war, being a gay teenager, and Chuck Close.
  • Smashed by Lisa Luedeke
  • Happier at Home by Gretchen Rubin

Watching:

  • Breaking Bad
  • On Sunday night, we had a highly enjoyable viewing of Hunger Games on our couch. We’ve had this couch for over a year now, and I don’t think we’ve ever sat down to just watch a movie on it, since we are perpetually on laptops and sitting at computers and in our old apartment we had a futon and a couch in the living room. HOWEVER, I just wanted to say that despite our couch’s ugliness and free-from-the-curb-ness and leather-y-ness, it is ideal for two people to lay down together and watch a movie on a Sunday night.

Listening To:

  • All sorts of Genius playlists, musical soundtracks, random Spotify CDs, and basically I am out of control. Anyone reading, please tell me what CD I should listen to, I’m running out of ideas.
03 Nov 2012

so you ran out of This American Life, vol. 2

Nine months ago, I fell down the well of Obsessive Podcast Listening. I don’t know if this is necessary correlative, but you know what? I’ve been a happier person these last nine month, and one place I get a lot of daily happiness is picking a good podcast to keep me company. I can’t quite explain what makes podcasts so wonderful, but I suspect its something about the intimacy of audio, the candid interviews, the uncensored-ness of alt-media.

When I was younger, my parents were Howard Stern fans, which I thought was bizarre, since he was rude, inappropriate, and ridiculously misogynistic.

Now I think I get it.

I shared some of my favorites back in March, but I’ve found many more podcasts to love since then. Again, I shall give all due credit to Ashley over at Writing to Reach You. She is my Patron Saint of Podcast. You can find some of her recommendations here and here.

In my last list, I was like “eh, Marc Maron.” Oh, how quickly the tides turn. I remember very distinctly some time last spring, listening to the opening monologue to Mindly Kaling episode while jogging around my school’s tiny track and thinking “Man, I wish this guy would shut up so I can get to the good part.” Now, I regularly think “Man, I wish that Marc Maron wouldn’t even have guests and would just talk to himself for a full hour.” I am a WTF with Marc Maron convert.

For the uninitiated, Marc Maron is a comedian who started performing in the 80s and 90s, but never saw particular commercial success. But what does that even mean for comedians? A half hour special on Comedy Central? A role on SNL? Who knows, but if this question is at all interesting to you, then you might like this podcast. Maron interviews comedians, musicians, and other celebrities, talking about their childhoods, their careers, and their other struggles. Conversations vary in tone and topic, but are fairly consistently engaging. Just do it.

Elizabeth and Andy Laime have another podcast, Totally Laime, that is more of the traditional “interviewing cool people” format. I listened to a few episodes, but couldn’t get into it… however, I may have to reconsider because I love-love-love their spin-off podcast, Totally Married. Elizabeth and Andy are married (duh) and in this podcast, they talk about their lives, their relationship, their past relationships, and answer relationship advice questions from listeners. I am indifferent about the advice portion, but damn if Elizabeth and Andy aren’t just terribly charming. I am obsessed with all things marriage, but I feel like much marriage-related media is focused on traditional family structures, gender roles, and expectations. Totally Married is like a peep-hole directly into the marriage of two young, creative types, which I find much more relevant and interesting.

On the JV Club, Janet Varney invites female actors, comedians, musicians, bloggers, and other media-makers, to come to her house and talk about their teenage years. I love how quickly these stories become passionate and involved – whether they are tales of great childhoods or troubled teenage-doms, there is something so intense about a teen girlhood… the story of your teen years is a powerful one.

See also: my YA obsession. Those who write for teens might find this podcast an inspiring way to remember the specificity of those complex teen stories and emotions.

Speaking of YA, Sara Zarr is a well-known, well-awarded YA author who has started a podcast of her own. This Creative Life is nothing unexpected – Sara chats with authors of all sorts (not just YA) about their writing process, how they feel about their careers, what kinds of things they value in their own creative journeys. The kind of stuff that writers and writer-wannabes love to hear about, even though they should know well enough that there’s not some “secret” of success that only the published, well-known, well-awarded authors hold. However, what makes this podcast special is that Zarr talks to her guests like they are trusted friends, colleagues, etc, and the conversations sound almost like actual phone conversations between two creative types. I don’t find these podcasts life changing, but I do find the peek into the minds of writers helps me think about my own mind in a similar way.

And now for something entirely different… Doug Loves Movies! Comedian Doug Benson invites comedians and actors to join in many movie-related games in front of a live audience, and records the podcast. The games are silly party games – name that movie, string together movie titles, I can’t really explain this very well so I am going to stop. The “contestants” are sometimes very good and sometimes very bad. But what is most impressive is the star-power that Doug can convince to come play games – if you ever are in the mood for a light, “Wait, Wait Don’t Tell Me” kind of podcast but starring Judd Apatow, Aziz Ansari, or Anna Kendrick, then you might like Doug Loves Movies.

02 Nov 2012

Tuberculosis, Wes Moore, and Frederick Douglass

Invincible Microbe: Tuberculosis and the Never-Ending Search for a Cure by Jim Murphy and Alison Blank

One of my favorite qualities of nonfiction for kids and teens is that the authors are never allowed to be too narrow. Some readers may come to a book with background knowledge on the topic, but most don’t – they need a little more context. Good nonfiction authors, I’ve found, do more than do a little info-dump at the beginning of the book; they simply broaden the discussion to give a cultural and historical background, weaving in specific information as they go.

Murphy and Blank are such authors. I have never been more interested in pathology than when reading Invincible Microbe. The best part, I thought, was the sometimes painful, always weird details of what passed for TB treatments over the years: starving, bleeding, rolling everyone’s beds out on the porch to sleep – all fair game! You will never be more thankful for modern medicine, and, at the same time, more horrified that tuberculosis is still a rising problem around the world.

 

Abraham Lincoln & Frederick Douglass: The Story Behind an American Friendship

by Russell Freedman

I have a well-known histori-crush on Abraham Lincoln, but Frederick Douglass ain’t no slouch. Ever read his autobiography? That’s some tough stuff. Anyway, these two men are quite well-known and much biographed, but Freedman manages to provide a compelling little dual-biography by focusing on the qualities and interests that the two figures shared. However, I did not know that these two men had a few encounters, and while “friendship” might be a stretch – they only met a handful of times – they obviously had a great respect for each other, a respect that was racially crazy for the time. I really enjoyed this book

Discovering Wes Moore by Wes Moore

Aaaaand speaking of unlikely friendships, this guy Wes Moore  met a guy with the same name who grew up in the same neighborhood as he did. While Wes Moore #1 became an “author, businessman, and US Army veteran,” Wes Moore #2 received a life sentence for murdering a policeman. At some point, the cops came to Wes Moore #1’s parents house looking for dirt on Wes Moore #2; later, Wes Moore #1 decided to mail Wes Moore #2 a letter, and they developed a friendship. How interesting.

Maybe Wes Moore’s book for adults, The Other Wes Moore is more of a reflection on this interesting friendship… but the juvenilized version, Discovering Wes Moore, is all childhood memoir, all Wes Moore #1 looking back at how his Mom raised him right, family made sacrifices, how he acted like a dumb little kid most of the time but learned from mistakes and became a man, etc etc etc. The Wes Moore #1 meets Wes Moore #2 bit is kept to the final chapter, reserving the rest for good old fashioned Lesson Teaching.

Ahem.