19 Apr 2013

break the fast books

This is self-torture because I am still days away from the end of my reading deprivation, even then I have three review books on the docket. It will be awhile until I pick up any of these titles… but here are some choices for reading once all that dust settles.

The other day I was thinking about how hard it is for one person to adequately understand another person’s particular existence. This is the kind of exciting thing you think about when you aren’t reading books or watching TV and the enormity of the human experience on this planet is suddenly on your mind much more often. Also, the last book you read before the drought was Frankie Landau-Banks. Anywaaay, that’s what I was thinking about, and then I remembered oh, that’s exactly what Paper Towns is about! I think I’ve only read Paper Towns once, which is unusual for me and a John Green book, so I could go for a quick re-read.

Speaking of quick reads, I have had Beverley Brenna’s Wild Orchid checked out for months now. Wild Orchid is the first book in the series that includes the Printz-honor winning The White Bicycle, and I am one of those people who refuse to betray the sanctity of the series 9 times out of 10. I want to read book three, I must first read books one and two. That’s just the way it works.

Speaking of books I’ve had checked out for months, I am on my last renew with Amor Towles’s Rules of Civility. I could read this one real quick – I started it once and I liked what I read, so I think I could muscle through with the proper motivation!

And the final option… I could read a book about Rome because I checked out like 6 of them and haven’t read a single one yet. I am actually going to be in Rome in 3 months. I will also be married. Equally bizarre situations. I could read a marriage book, yes, but I’ve read books about marriage before. I have not read books about Rome. I could read Rome and a Villa by Eleanor Clark – it is a series of memoir-ish sketches about living in Rome while on a Guggenheim fellowship in 1945. Can you imagine being a woman in 1945 on a Guggenheim fellowship living abroad? I at least want to give this one a taste.

18 Apr 2013

The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks by E. Lockhart

Have I ever told you about this book? One of my all-time favorite books? This book I once tried to read while driving 70 mph up US-127 North? No? Yes? Either way, consider this an ode to The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks by E. Lockhart.

Frankie is a sophomore at an academically elite boarding school. She is a normal girl – smart and ambitious compared to some of her schoolmates, but normal. Over the summer, puberty arrives and she becomes a fairly hot girl. When she returns to Alabaster, her new-found hotness lures in Matthew Livingston – senior BMOC (do people still use this acronym/phrase?) – who finds her sexy, adorable, and good company. Life would be good for Frankie, but when Matthew ditches her to partake in purposely vague activities with his group of guy friends – guy friends who she likes and who like her – she can’t help but feel jealous. And suspicious. And curious. One night she follows Matthew and finds out they are part of a longstanding, all-male society.

Frankie can’t figure out why her chromosomes prevent her from joining the group, but they won’t even talk about it, much less let her in. So why not just infiltrate their ranks from afar and trick the Loyal Order of the Basset Hounds into perpetrating acts of art-protest-chaos across Alabaster’s conservative campus?

Why not, Frankie? Why not.

I suspect that a plot summary alone might be enough to convince you to read. This is an incredible concept for a work of contemporary young adult realism – (Traditional boarding school tale + urban exploration  + secret societies) to the power of (the patriarchy + social philosophy). Oh, and in case that’s not enough, there’s the Frankie and Matthew romance, which is actually an incredibly subtle love triangle. This is a tightly written, quick-paced romp of a story that somehow captures everything else I just mentioned. A work of literary genius, basically.

But that is not why I have an undying love for this book, why it’s one of my favorite books of all time, why I could read it over and over and over again without questioning my judgement for a moment.

I love this book because it’s a book about a teenage girl who cares about boys and clothes and friends, but she also does stuff.

E. Lockhart has a way with this kind of character. I said it twice already – Frankie is normal – but in the world of teen girls in YA novels, she’s unique in that she’s not quite so interested whether she’s getting along with her mom/brother/boyfriend/crush/best friend. She does care about that stuff, but there are bigger questions going on in Frankie’s head. If she has a weird interaction with her sister on the phone, she doesn’t spend a chapter stewing over their relationship, she hangs up the phone and rolls her eyes and gets on with her life. When Matthew doesn’t let her touch his china Basset Hound and gets weird about it, she doesn’t start a fight or mope or have internal debates about their relationship: she makes an assessment and uses that information to better understand how power works in his secret society. Frankie is practical. She makes things happen. It’s a refreshing thing to read.

I love this book because Ms. Lockhart’s writing is a thing to behold.

I appreciate her skill more with every re-read. This most recent read, The Boy sat with me on the couch while I was reading. I asked him if he wanted me to read a little to him and he humored me. It was the scene with Porter and Frankie at the snack shack, where Frankie verbally abuses Porter because, well, he is her ex-boyfriend who cheated on her and deserves some retroactive verbal abuse. Anyway, the scene was 100% dialogue, and I was reading both parts aloud.

It started off awkward, but after a few paragraphs it was like, the words carried me into some kind of High School Theater Flashback – there were intonations and gestures and I think The Boy got a phone call in the middle of the scene so I stopped but then picked right back up once he hung up because the tension between Frankie and Porter was just in my apartment at that point. We had to finish it up.

That is some damn good dialogue. Just saying.

I love this book because the final scene between Matthew and Frankie? Kills me.

I don’t want to spoil anything, so stop reading now if you are super-concerned… but the place that Frankie and Matthew end up at the end of the story is just this raw, awful moment when you realize that the person who you thought knew you the best has no idea – no idea – what you are, who you are, how you are. And never has. You’ve been alone the whole time. God. It’s an intense scene and Lockhart nails it.

And most of all, I love this book because Frankie is an anti-heroine. A fifteen-year-old girl bad-ass anti-heroine.

I’ve been reading the first few chapters of John Truby’s The Anatomy of Story, which is all about developing ideas into stories. The starting place is your protagonist. According to Truby, what makes a story a story is your heroine’s weakness. She needs to make certain changes in her life in order to overcome this weakness – changes that are internal are psychological needs, changes that have to do with how your heroine treats others are moral needs. All of this adds up to a problem that the heroine faces that drives the rest of the story. Once the heroine addresses her weakness through her psychological and moral needs, then she can solve the problem and the story’s end is satisfying.

I’ve tried to apply this model to Frankie and it just doesn’t fit. Frankie isn’t without faults – she’s pushy, she’s not always a good friend, she’s obsessive, she’s manipulative. Some of those could be psychological and moral needs… but the story doesn’t end with Frankie learning to treat others better. In fact, Lockhart does this genius thing where you are pretty sure that all of Frankie’s faults would be strengths if she was a boy, and that her problems aren’t really her problems, but side effects of the patriarchal power structures in the way men treat women, in her boarding school, and in the world.

Frankie isn’t trying to conquer her own demons. She’s trying to SAVE THE WORLD! THROUGH FEMINISM! AND DEFYING THE PANOPTICON! AND HANGING BRAS ON PORTRAITS OF OLD MEN!

Well, now you all think I’m crazy. But you know what? Everyone thought Frankie was crazy, too. Just read the book already, okay??

17 Apr 2013

first quarter results

I read 34 books between January 1st and March 31st. The first quarter of 2013 is over, and I’m pleased with my reading progress. If I keep this up for the rest of the year, I will be extra pleased. I feel like I’m reading a lot and liking a lot of what I read.

For fun, here is a list of my 2013 Q1 reading sorted by my Goodreads ranking. I reserve the right to change my mind about any ratings at any moment, since I sometimes hate a book one week and love it the next. Or give a book 5 stars in 2008 and then change it to 2 stars in 2013. Or give 4 stars in 2008 to a book that, in 2013, you realize you never actually finish reading *cough* Great Gatsby *cough*.

(Speaking of Gatsby, I am actually reading it, and actually enjoying it.)

(At least I was, until I stopped reading books for the week)

(What is wrong with me?)

(Also, if you are wondering what bizarre activities remain if you cut out reading/TV/blogs/podcasts, you are about to find out…)

 

Two Stars

34 Pieces of You by Carmen Rodrigues

Meant to Be by Lauren Morrill

 

Three Stars

The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake by Aimee Bender

The Impostor’s Daughter by Laurie Sandell

Dead Cat Bounce by Nic Bennett

The Dinner by Herman Koch

S. E. C. R. E T. by L. Marie Adeline

Monkey Mind by Daniel B. Smith

The Story of X by A. J. Molloy

Nantucket Blue by Leila Howland

Wonder by R. J. Palacio

The Book of Broken Hearts by Sarah Ockler

The Tragedy Paper by Elizabeth Laban

Someday, Someday, Maybe by Lauren Graham

 

Four Stars

Daring Greatly by Brene Brown

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Universe by Benjamin Alire Saenz [review here]

The Little Book of Talent by Daniel Coyle

Steal Like an Artist by Austin Kleon

Seraphina by Rachel Hartman [review here]

Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell [review here]

Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins

You’re Not Doing It Right by Michael Ian Black

The Lucy Variations by Sara Zarr

Marbles by Ellen Forney

The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen

Silver Sparrow by Tayari Jones [review here]

The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight by Jennifer E. Smith [review here]

Bottomless Belly Button by Dash Shaw

Where’d You Go, Bernadette by Maria Semple

Sat Sugar Fat by Michael Moss [review here]

The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin

Always Alice by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor

Stupid Fast by Geoff Herbach

Ask the Passengers by A. S. King [review here]

After Visiting Friends by Michael Hainey

The Middlesteins by Jami Attenberg

Five Stars

Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

Tiny Beautiful Things by Cheryl Strayed [review here]

This Lullaby by Sarah Dessen

Just Listen by Sarah Dessen

The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks by E. Lockhart

 

 

 

 

 

16 Apr 2013

reading deprivation

I am four weeks into Julia Cameron’s The Artist’s Way program.

This feels like a confession, a dirty secret, something embarrassingly woo-woo and desperate. Something that normal people don’t do, normal people don’t need, and especially not a person like myself!

But four weeks ago I was just at a loss, so here I am, writing morning pages again, taking myself on Artist Dates, and repeating affirmations. Yes, affirmations.

It has been good, though. I am not a particularly spiritual-woo-woo-creative-muse-come-to-me kind of person, but I AM a person who likes a plan. A program. A syllabus. Doing my weekly reading, my daily writing, my creative exercises has been satisfying. I have gamely completed a number of silly exercises as Ms. Cameron has presented them to me.

Until last night, when I read my marching orders for the upcoming week and halfway through the chapter Ms. Cameron presented a thing called reading deprivation. Just don’t read. Anything. For a week.

The following negative emotions coursed through me: fear, panic, disgust, anxiety, horror, incredulity, disdain. Me, not read? Well, that’s just not an option. Reading is my self-assigned job, my livelihood, my world. And did you know, Ms. Cameron, that I am on a book review deadline right now? Simply impossible.

Of course, Ms. Cameron responded with this, the next line in the chapter:

At least one student always explains to me – pointedly, in no uncertain terms – that he or she is a very important and busy person with duties and obligations that include reading. […] When the rage has been vented, when all the assigned reading for college courses and jobs has been mentioned, I point out that […] in my experience I had many times wriggled out of reading for a week due to procrastination. […] I ask my class to turn their creativity into wriggling into not reading.

Ahem.

And although I am skeptical, anxious, cynical and horrified, I also believe fairly firmly that the things I try the hardest to avoid doing are exactly the things I should be doing. When I start to do mental back-flips to get out of a task, when I have 100 excuses at the ready, then I take that as a sign that I should just do that thing.

Dammit.

And it gets worse. Ms. Cameron equates television with reading, which is understandable and not too hard for me to handle – I could go a week without TV, easy. But that means no movies, either, which is something that The Boy and I enjoy every week or two, and he’s home for Spring Break. I may need to fend him off. Okay. I can do that too.

But what will I do instead of read or watch TV or watch a movie? I could just read more things on the Internet! But that seems the opposite of what I’m supposed to be doing. Or I could run more, or do more spring cleaning… while I listen to my audiobook? No, no books. While I listen to a podcast? That seems strangely similar to an audiobook. So, what exactly IS this? Reading deprivation, or media deprivation, or self-torture??

[Insert a thousand excuses here]

[Insert Jessica’s Better Self. Even if Her Better Self is a bit woo-woo sometimes]

So I’m doing it, with one small reservation: I need to write these damn reviews and I can’t take a week off. So, today is the first of seven days with

  • no books (except for the three specific titles I must read)
  • no television
  • no movies
  • no audiobooks
  • no podcasts
  • no blogs
  • no Twitter or Facebook
  • no mindless internet reading
  • no magazines
  • no news

I think it’s actually the last one that makes me feel better about this. Given the circumstances  of my poor city, I could do without news for a little while.

Since this is a blog that is mostly about books, it seems like I should say “sayonara!” for the week… but if I’m not reading, I will probably have time to write here MORE often. Funny how that works. I’m nervous about this, yes, but also kind of excited to see what I end up doing with my time. Finish learning how to knit? Fold origami? Do a thousand crossword puzzles? Have a clean kitchen every day for seven days? Get into unnecessary arguments with The Boy to kill time? Sleep more? Drink more? Plan the rest of my wedding in a seven day marathon? WHO KNOWS!? It’s a great mystery! I just hope that I won’t come back next week a changed woman, enthusiastic about her life without books, because then I might have a bigger identity problem to tend to…

15 Apr 2013

my place

I had a post I wanted to write today, but I obviously can’t write it now because it’s just not happening. I live in Boston. I run. I am a person who lives in Boston and runs.

And that tiny bit of Boston you saw looping on your news stations all day? That the bit of Boston where I work, where I walk, where I take phone pictures while I’m waiting to cross the street. That is my place. I was there yesterday, on my day off. We tried to out-walk a slow-bus down Mass Ave and walked the neighborhood from end to end. We caught the magnolias blooming on Commonwealth.

I wasn’t there today. I won’t be there tomorrow. But I might be there on Wednesday.

I just don’t know what to do with all this. I don’t have anything inspiring or profound or touching or useful to share; I just couldn’t say anything, but I couldn’t say nothing. So sad. So, so sad.

11 Apr 2013

Salt Sugar Fat: How the Food Giants Hooked Us by Michael Moss

Michael Moss’s Sugar Fat Salt: How the Food Giants Hooked Us is an important book. A really important book. Keeping my ranting and ramblings down to a readable word count is going to be a Herculean task, so I will attempt to focus myself as such.

  • Part 1: The book as a book
  • Part 2: The information contained in said book
  • Part 3: Why I wish I had read this book when I was 9 years old, even though it is 500 pages long and not part of the Babysitters Club Series, which means I never would have read it

Part I: The Book as a Book

It’s been a long time since I’ve read a good food-based nonfiction book. Ever since I first encountered Mr. Michael Pollan’s work, my American-Diet-Food-Mind was blown open and I was ready for all sorts of other food-books. Sugar Salt Fat serves the same function as Pollan’s (and others’) work: to help you, the consumer and eater, see food beyond the scope of your own dinner plate, and therefore see how outside cultures, longstanding mythology, and corporate interests are shaping the way you eat.

With a title like Sugar Salt Fat, I expected an examination of how each of these three ingredients ravage your body and contribute to the obesity epidemic and basically are ruining America. Not the case. Moss’s work is all business – the business of making and marketing processed foods, that is – and this book explores on how sugar, salt and fat affect the bottom line of giant food manufacturers like General Mills, Kraft, Coke, and many others. It’s a corporate expose, not a nutrition manual.

Moss’s book is hefty, but the chapters are short, the prose readable, and the stories intriguing. Each chapter reads like an article – complete within itself – but the secrets of corporate food culture were so alluring that I couldn’t put it down.

 

Part II: The Information Contained in Said Book

Like I said, this is a really important book – another food manifesto for the 21st century that I hope many, many people read.

This is going to be poorly worded, but Moss’s thesis is this:

You, the consumer, the every day eater, have been convinced that processed food – anything in a crinkly plastic bag and a list of ingredients longer than 1 – is food. But it’s probably not. Once these companies tamper with these foods to A) make them last on the shelf without disgusting you B) make them completely irresistible to the American palate, these foods have so much sugar, fat, and salt, that your body doesn’t know what to do with them anymore. These added ingredients are making you sick.

The second half of the thesis:

These giant food corporations are in such heavy competition for the inherently limited amount of “shelf space” and “stomach share” available, they have zero qualms about adding more, more, and more of these ingredients in order to make their products more irresistible than the junk of their competitors.

So there’s a lie – that the processed food you eat every day is good for your body – and then corporate disregard for how their main business strategy contributes directly to obesity and illness.

Mind. Blown.

Don’t worry, there are plenty of little tidbits I’m not revealing here – the habits of food company CEOs, how Dr. Pepper became Dr. Pepper, why the fad school-lunch du jour of my elementary years – the Lunchable – was a significant “culinary” and marketing achievement for shoving processed foods down the throats of children…

I’m not bitter, I promise.

Part III: Why I Wish I’d Read This Book When I was 9-Years-Old

Oh wait, yes I am. I am bitter because I was a normal-sized little girl when I was a nine year old, a ten year old. I was taller than almost everyone in my class, though, so when we all had to stand on a scale in the nurse’s office in front of our classmates, I knew that I weighed more than almost everyone in my class. Certainly all the girls.

That wasn’t good knowledge to have as a little girl, but that’s not why I’m bitter. I’m bitter because around that same time, I remember a Saturday morning when I first felt shame about food. A box of Dunkin’ Donuts on the table, and I knew it was okay to eat 2 donuts. But the third donut, I probably shouldn’t have eaten. At the third donut I started making promises to myself, that I would never eat more than two again, that I shouldn’t have any snacks for the rest of the day, that I would maybe just stop eating donuts forever.

With the fourth donut came the self loathing. It was an awful feeling, to keep eating after I’d decided with my little-girl brain that I’d already crossed the line. And although I am not pinning my personal issues those box of fateful donuts, it was, in part, an awful feeling because these donuts were so delicious that I couldn’t say no. I wasn’t strong enough to resist. Good girls had more willpower – I must not be good.

It pisses me off to know that some middle aged men are sitting in laboratories, chemically engineering donuts to hit that “bliss point,” the point where your tastebuds take over, where you can’t say no – designing foods so insidiously so little girls can have breakfast and when they are done hate themselves and their bodies for years and years and years. I can’t help but wonder what effect a childhood grown on whole, unprocessed foods might have on eating disorders, food issues, the general female-body condition.

So read this book and then go to the market, cook yourself some dinner, give your kid a carrot, or whatever else you can do to step outside of the Corporate Food Cycle. If you don’t have time to read this book, read this article – it hits a lot of the high points. Please and thanks.

09 Apr 2013

my many numbered days

It’s been a month since I started reading 168 Hours, and I wish I could have a nice review for you here. I can’t, because I told this guy I live with that he would like it and while I was busy working on my Dream List, he stole it from me. And took it to work with him every day to read on the train. And then it went overdue and days passed and eventually it turned up in some the car of a guy named Josh. Such is life.

Instead of reading 168 Hours, I downloaded a 168 Hours app and started conducting my own time survey, or whatever Vanderkam calls it, I can’t remember because I haven’t set eyes on the book for weeks. It’s not a good app – it’s clunky and easy to click on the wrong thing and I’m not sure what happens to your data once a week resets on Sundays – buuuuuut it’s fun. High strung Type-A fun, but judge lest ye judged.

Right now it’s 9:00 p.m. on a Tuesday. I can tell you with certainty that in the past 72 hours, I have designated my time as such:

  • 1 hour and 19 minutes cleaning my apartment. It was pretty filthy.
  • 40 minutes running errands not related to groceries.
  • 29 minutes buying groceries.
  • 29 minutes preparing dinner (thank you crock pot!!)
  • 1 hour and seven minutes eating dinner (we were watching the end of The Descendants on Sunday night, so I couldn’t eat very fast because I was crying. That isn’t even a joke)
  • 1 hour and 18 minutes  eating lunch
  • 1 hour and 43 minutes watching the season premiere of Mad Men
  • 38 minutes showering, recovering from shower, and blow drying hair
  • 25 minutes “puttering around the house”
  • 1 hour and 26 minutes “getting out the door”
  • 21 minutes waking up
  • 16 minutes  preparing for bed
  • 23 minutes running
  • 3 hours and 17 minutes commuting (most of which time was spent also reading)
  • 2 hours and 34 minutes just plain reading (most of time spend on The Tragedy Paper)
  • 2 hours and 50 minutes on creative writing pursuits
  • 3 hours and 34 minutes working on The Artist’s Way tasks
  • 13 hours and 10 minutes working
  • 1 hour and 48 minutes at the dentist
  • 2 hours and 20 minutes sitting on an “alumni panel” of a program that I am not an alumni of…
  • 24 hours and 35 minutes sleeping
  • And, 26 minutes blogging. Sorry guys.

It was probably not fun to read those numbers, but it is fun to know those numbers, to look at them, to cringe and feel proud as such. I think keeping a Time Diary is similar to keeping a Food Diary – the act of recording makes you more aware of how you spend your time, which makes you improve the way you spend your time. 25 minutes “puttering around”? That means that I actually could not think of a single category of thing that I wanted to do, that I should do. But how many more minutes would I have if I didn’t have my silly little app on the back of my mind, encouraging me to do something more… uh… categorizable? Thinking of how to categorize your time also a valuable task: like this librarian learned in cataloging class, how you sort data implies a value system. How you sort YOUR data implies YOUR value system.

The moral of this story is: who needs to read the book? Just download the app instead!

That was a joke. But seriously, where is that book???

 

06 Apr 2013

next in line

I am keeping QUITE the tight reading ship lately – books come in, books go out. Not reading six books at once, nothing lingering on for weeks. Very unlike me.

This post was fun – I read Someday, Someday Maybe and I decided to speed read The Tragedy Paper this weekend since it’s ah… umm.. overdue. Ivan had to go back, but we will meet again.

So once I’m done with Tim & Duncan, what’s next?

I have very distinct high school memories involving The Great Gatsby, memories of typical English class disappointment. In this Sad English Saga, we were assigned one or two chapters a week. I couldn’t keep up because I was SO busy, what with all my AP courses – two science classes, can you believe it! – and taking music lessons and my overflowing social life… oh wait, that’s a lie, I just couldn’t be bothered to read anything I didn’t want to read in high school. Anywaaaay, the ending to this story is, I was taking our weekly reading quiz over the chapters I hadn’t read that week, and found out that a main character died and I was simply too shocked to pass the quiz! Anyway… so the only reason I want to re-read this dreadful book is because A) there is a movie coming out I’d like to see and B) oh, it’s an American classic that everyone says you should actually read and it’s not even that long. My copy came in this week, and if I read 1-2 chapter a week, maybe I can pass my quiz. I mean, finish before the movie comes out.

Hey, remember when I said I was going to read five romances? Well, that was three months ago now, and I’m stalled on four. Love and Other Perishable Items is still here, waiting for me, on my damn bookshelf…

…unless of course there is a shiny brand new book in the house. After Visiting Friends showed up all unread and lovely on my hold shelf this afternoon. It might be a hopeless fight.

Or maybe I don’t want to read about a dead [insert main character here] or a dead father or… a romance. Maybe I want to read something unusual? I acquired Oleander Girl recently – it looks like it would be up my alley, and a blurb from Junot Diaz means a lot to me.

 

…. I may have already made my decision, and it might be After Visiting Friends and I might have already read 100 pages. And I’m already sucked in.

Dorothy. Betsy. Harry Potter.

 

05 Apr 2013

to ALA or not to ALA

This is a post for all the librarians out there… you know who you are. Because you have appropriate degrees and job titles and are otherwise confident in your librarianship.

I can’t decide if I should join ALA and attend this year’s Annual Conference or not,

and I need your advice.

Here’s the sitch:

I have the opportunity to attend this year’s annual conference in Chicago. I am 99% sure my time away from the office will be approved, and I will likely receive some cash-money to fund my trip. But unless there’s some kind of act of Library God, I will need to pay a significant chunk of the trip on my own – at least 300 dollars, probably much more, and that’s not including membership fees. It’s also very close to my wedding, so an additional trip to the Midwest would be stressful.

But I’m not really interested in the particular pros and cons of my ALA situation, though. What I want to know is, given the considerable investment of my own time and my own money, what exactly is the return?

Based on previous experience attending ALA conferences and assorted other groundless assumptions, allow me to categorize what I perceive as the potential benefits in order of significance:

1. Professional Development & Professional Contribution

Pros: Attend ALA Annual and one can attend various sessions, talks, and presentations on subjects of professional interest. One can chat with publishers about upcoming trends, chat with vendors about the products ones use every day at work, chat with other librarians who have similar concerns and questions about the library-world. There’s also the benefit of contributing to the national librarian discourse – just asking smart questions and having conversations with other librarians, or committee-work. I feel like those who can contribute should. I feel like I’m a person who wants to contribute.

Cons: My current librarian-purview is a unique one. The chances of sitting in on a session that is directly applicable to my job’s challenges is highly unlikely. My position also crosses the barrier between techie-librarian and youth-services; I’m not likely to find many others in my situation without some kind of ALA Match.com type meet-up (hey, wait a second, that idea might be genius…) I’m worried that the professional development available at this conference will not provide the bang for the buck.

The big PRO retort to this, of course, is that I think the professional development benefits to ALA membership might be cumulative: join now, come now, and in five years I might have connections and opportunities that aren’t available/visible to me right now. Maybe in a few years, I could be giving a presentation, serving on a committee… but at some point you have to, you know, join/show up.

2. Networking

Pros: Do I really need to go into the “pros” of networking?? You meet new people and build relationships with people you’ve already met, and those people will be your future source of ideas, resources, etc. It’s fun, it’s mutually beneficial, it can occasionally include cocktails, and although the term networking makes me feel awful and squirmy, “talking to other librarians about stuff we like” is good for the soul.

Cons: Networking makes me feel awful and squirmy. Even if I can tone down the social anxiety long enough to show up and chat with people I don’t know, I am still an introvert-supreme: such efforts will expend much energy and require recovery. Otherwise I will feel extra awful.

Knowing myself, I will probably figure out which of my friends are attending and spend 90% of my required socializing time reconnecting. That is not a bad thing, but also not exactly “networking” at it’s most effective. How valuable is the limited networking that an introvert can accomplish in one hectic, travel-filled weekend?

The PRO retort is probably the same as above – small amounts of networking add up over time, and why not start now?

3. Free books, swag, and giggly-fun author events

Pros: This is the fun stuff, and for the first time, actually somewhat of a professional help for me – my success at my job requires a certain amount of nebulous “book awareness” that allows me to make good purchasing decisions. Conferences such as these definitely contribute to that awareness, even if I don’t read every ARC I come home with.

Cons: Although I have attended some swell author events and snagged some choice advanced readers at conferences past… is that really helping me get “book awareness?” I’m dubious. I also haven’t recovered from the class where we discussed Authors-as-Celebrities and Librarians-as-Groupies at length. I’m not above attending said events or getting excited about certain pre-pub titles, but I’m also not going to fork over hundreds of my own dollars just to do so.

Am I being cynical? Or is there value I’m not seeing here?

At the end of the day, participating in ALA as a member or a conference-attendee is a decision that librarians make. Some librarians choose not to participate. I don’t know which decision is for me yet, but I can’t help but feel like I’m missing some information.

Any ALA members, past or present, have any input? Has your ALA membership been worth the cash and time? Would you never trade it for the world? If you could go back, would you have joined earlier… or later… or never? Is there value that I am ignoring or glossing over? Is it all overrated? Is it better to invest time and energy into less hyped-up endeavors? Am I making a mountain out of here’s-some-free-money-to-go-to-ALA-take-it-and-shut-up? Am I completely anxious and crazy?

Don’t answer that last one, actually. But the rest I could use some help. Lend this First-Year Librarian some wisdom!

02 Apr 2013

a book i can’t put down

I did not mean to come home from work today and sit on the couch and read all night. It must be fate. I went to use the bathroom at work today and the toilet wouldn’t flush. Then I tried to wash my hands and no water came out of the faucet. Thirty minutes later, I was on my way home – broken water main, building closing, come back tomorrow. I left in such a hurry (an excited, yay-we-are-leaving-at-3 hurry, not a “my library is filling with water” hurry) that I forgot the book I was reading. So when I got home and my apartment was sunny and it was only 3:30, I had to read the OTHER book I was reading. First-world-nerd problems, I know.

But then I couldn’t stop reading. Jami Attenberg’s The Middlesteins was all over the Best of 2012 lists, but in case you missed it, add it to your TBR. Unless the last forty pages go completely awry, this is a damn good read. Maybe I’ll let you know tomorrow – I’m doubting my ability not to stay up past my 9 o’clock bedtime to finish off the rest.