Month: May 2012

11 May 2012

Jersey Angel by Beth Ann Bauman

After hearing about Beth Anne Bauman’s Jersey Angel described as unusually sexy, maybe even TOO salacious for YA? I’m interested. I like to read controversial books, and even though the controversy surrounding the relative “sexiness” seems to have been limited to a few weeks of pre-pub buzz that has long since fizzled out, a quick look at the online reviews for this title on Goodreads or online reveals some VERY upset readers. But they aren’t upset in the way I expected, which isn’t suprising, since I did not find Jersey Angel to be the book I expected either.

Angel is sixteen, a year-round beach dweller. Her mother makes a living renting her two beach houses to tourists, Angel works at her dad’s gas station for pocket change, but that’s not the best part of Angel’s life. Angel lives for the summer, for kicking back with her best friend Inggy, for late night parties on the sand and boat rides and boys. Of course, boys. This is a slice-of-Angel’s-life, and her life, like the plot, is unfocused. Her relationships – friendships or family, sexual or not – drive the story.  Angel is relaxed – no worries about grades, college, life choices, the other things that female YA protagonists are usually stressing over – and tension emerges when the reader starts to wonder if her laid-back attitude might end up coming back around to punish her.

The sex? It is there, but in small doses and with most of the action happening off stage; with all the buzz, I expected a lot more to blush about. The sex that makes it to the page is detailed in a romantic manner, full of moody details of the sand, the water, etc, but Bauman’s descriptions are not starry-eyed. I think in YA, the reader expects sex to be the result of a lot of build up between two particular characters, maybe a first-time incident for one or both parties, and then – Hollywood style – the romance of their relationship and the setting and their LOVE just sweeps away any need for details. This is not the case for Angel. The descriptions here speak of a character who knows what she is doing with her sexuality, knows what she wants with a boy, and likes sex for those reasons, not because it has some larger significance, plot or otherwise. I think this makes readers uncomfortable. Most of the bad reviews written about this novel seem to attend to this discomfort, but strangely, without naming it directly. Instead, reviewers call Angel “superficial,” and “boring,” and most are deeply uncomfortable not with Angel’s sexuality, but that she makes a bad choice in partners and doesn’t get punished. But I don’t think these reviewers just want Angel to be punished for an indiscretion – they want Angel to be punished for not adhering to the code of acceptable YA sexuality. The reactions here feel like an updated version of the 1970s panic over Judy Blume’s Forever…

So unsettling, yes. A book that every reader would feel comfortable handing off to their 12-year-old child? Perhaps not. But I do think Angel’s perspective is unique, the writing evocative, and the mood beachy and sultry and all other things I like about summer.

And contrary to some angry reviewers, I don’t think this book bears much resemblance to that other piece of New Jersey-themed Televised Fiction. However, since I have honestly (Honestly) never seen an episode in my life, I am really just speculating. I think there was a little laundry, but no gym and no tanning, and no mention of hair gel, bleeped out swear words, or anything else that the media has led me to associate with the Jersey Shore.

10 May 2012

what will i learn next?

So, this is my last week of grad school.

correction:

SO, THIS IS MY LAST WEEK OF GRAD SCHOOL YOU GUYS OMGASDFASDFWEreralkejr;lwk232

I have been in school since August of 2009. I have not had more than a week’s break from classes in almost three years. I’ve been working anywhere between 1 and 27 jobs. My life is school and school is my life. It now appears that I am being kicked out of my institution, and I must seek greener pastures.

Ideally, those greener pastures would include A Full Time Job, but more on that nonsense later.

And even if I was to suddenly find myself with a smashing, 40 hr/week career job, I’m afraid that I am a busy body. Taking class and working eleven-million jobs has exacerbated the problem. I can barely watch a movie or play a video game or sit quietly on the couch anymore. I need projects, I need to keep moving, I am probably bordering on manic but my Brain! Must! Keep! Moving! otherwise I start to panic.

Well, this post is getting weird. Onto the good stuff. In order to shut up my panic-brain, here are some things I would like to learn now that I have a little time on my hands.

Learn how to knit

I have been meaning to learn how to knit for years and years and years. My whole family does it. I am jealous of the things they can make. My roommate took two classes and could suddenly knit entire outfits, she was such a natural. I, on the other hand, knit this square, and that was it.

I would like to try again, but in truth, knitting might not be high on my priority list. You see, the reason I keep quitting is not because I am so busy or have questionable talent, but because I am too broke to buy yarn. While I will have more time in the near future, I will not have more money. Conundrum.

Learn how to speak Spanish

A) I have always wanted to learn another language. I took two years of Spanish in high school and two semesters of French in college. I can therefore speak not-much-of-anything, but I feel I could pick up a little of either language with a bit of practice. I’m no stranger to language-learnin’. Why not learn the language that, oh, thousands of my fellow American citizens speak? That would be useful, huh?

B) You would not believe how many jobs I am getting boxed out of because I do not speak Spanish. I am a little perturbed that my fancy grad school education has left me somewhat unemployable in this manner! Anyway, this skill could be marketable for me, as well.

Learn how to run a 10K

Okay, so you are wondering “hey, Jessica, whatever happened to running a 5K? Well I will tell you: I have been able to run 3 very slow miles (with reasonable/limited amounts of walking) since about March.

But right when I was getting comfortable running 2-3 miles 4 or 5 times a week, I got really-really-really-busy. I stopped having time for quite so many runs, and on the evenings I did have off, I collapsed in a puddle of exhaustion.

I am not really making much progress, mileage-wise.

Anyway, I’d like to get my momentum back, and I’m thinking about formally “training” for a longer run. I spotted a little training plan on the Marriage Confessions blog that looked completely…. reasonable. I think this will motivate me to use some of my new-found free time to get off my butt and run regularly again.

 

Learn how to meditate

Some people are really zen and chill and they never grind their teeth or accidentally hold their breath or sit with their shoulders up against their ears. Some people can shut off the talk-talk-talking in their brain for more than 1 minute. I think those people are happier than me and they can do all that because they have learned to meditate.

Maybe this is not exactly true, but I feel there is likely value in being able to sit in silence and be. That is not a skill I have cultivated. I think it could help my Physical-Manifestations-of-Stress problems, as well as well as make me a less anxious (aka less snippy, less weepy, more pleasant) human being.

This will be hard. The idea of scheduling a half hour to “sit” just blows my mind. Sitting? What is that? I’m either on the go, crashed on the couch, or asleep.

 

Learn how to get married

I went through a brief “Plan-your-wedding-before-you-are-engaged” stage. Years ago. When I had more time to day dream. And had no idea how much things like weddings cost. Anyway, I would like to get married sometime in 2013, so now is the time to learn… and learn fast!

This is probably a post for another day, but I basically want nothing to do with wedding-planning, so this could be painful. Can we skip right to the cake-tasting?

 

 

08 May 2012

and it was still hot

Last October, I posted about my favorite Maurice Sendak book.

This past Saturday, I carried around this t-shirt for three or four hours while I worked at my bookstore, trying to decide if I had enough money to buy it.

During three years in grad school, I have seen about three movies in the theater. One was Where the Wild Things Are.

In my picturebook class, we studied an impressive list of fifty illustrators. Sendak was not on the list, we were told, because we would keep talking about him all semester whether he was on it or not.

Today, my program was asked by national news operations to comment on the life and legacy of this artist and author.

Today, I have been asked to put together a book display in my library to honor his passing.

When I was small, my mother read me In The Night Kitchen; I think I will probably always remember her voice, his words, in this way.

07 May 2012

2012: week eighteen

April 20 – May 5

On Sunday, I went for a 2+ mile run, then swung by JP Licks on the way home for a small scoop of Oreo ice cream. With sprinkles.

On Monday, I threw a banquet. I really did.

On Tuesday, I slept in until 8 a.m., and dropped about 700 dollars on car repairs. Yeaaahhh…

On Wednesday, it was misty outside and my hair swelled to three times its typical volume.

On Thursday, I accidentally stayed late at work.

On Friday, I had my first weekday-off-with-nobody-else-home-and-nothing-much-to-do since I don’t even remember. I suspect it was sometime in October.

On Saturday, I saw the supermoon.

Reading:

Listening to:

  • Podcasts, podcasts, podcasts…

Watching:

  • LOST  The boy has me on a strict nightly regimen. Unfortunately, we’ve started watching the episodes we haven’t seen 100 times, so we have to start paying attention…
  • Picked up Switched at Birth again… luckily, it seems I haven’t forgotten a thing!
  • I keep trying to watch videos on our desktop and then cursing our desktop and then fantasizing about throwing it out the window. So, I’ve watched the first 3 minutes of a number of different shows, hoping for different results. Alas, my old computer can no longer play new videos, and my laptop has no audio. Fun times.

 

05 May 2012

may links

Interview with Molly Leach

So, how awesome is the 50th Anniversary cover of A Wrinkle in Time? This interview with the cover, Molly Leach, talks about how she incorporated the artistic “theme” of the original cover while creating something entirely modern. Excellent.

Fever 1793

I don’t gravitate toward historical fiction, but this post by Laurie Halse Anderson reminded me of how much I did like her story of the Yellow Fever plague… completely horrifying. Which apparently is how you suck me into a historical novel. Scare the pants off me.

The Problem is Not the Books

In my library class the semester, we’ve gone back and forth about what the librarian’s role is in providing “girl books” to girls and “boy books” to boys. I can see both sides of the argument… it’s hard to argue that librarians should ignore what their patrons want to read in lieu of more “gender neutral” titles, but at the same time, why promote a broken system? This article by author Saundra Mitchell, sums up the broken system pretty convincingly, but I’m still ruminating over how this comes to play in a practical library setting…

Rejection Letter

“This writing thing, it never has any guarantees. And I don’t mean that in this “well, of course it doesn’t, life doesn’t come with a receipt,” kind of way. I mean it in a gut-wrenching, black hole, you-will-occasionally-feel-so-worthless-that-you-will-want-to-hide-under-something-in-the-closet-for-the-next-year way.”

How, exactly, do you develop thicker skin? This article doesn’t have the answer, but it shows that no matter where you are in your writing career, rejection can knock you down. Maybe it’s just part of the process for some sensitive people (see: me)

 

Five Year Plan

Our plan is dreaming big, but it’s also possible

At this point in my life, I am thinking a lot about long-term plans – 5 years-ish. I liked reading about how this mom was able to propose a plan to get her where she wants to go, even with a family to worry about. It’s a balancing act, making plans with other people’s goals and opinions in the mix, but it doesn’t mean you have to be conservative. I’ll be keeping this post in mind as we continue to dream and plan over the next few months.

How I Decide Where to Focus My Energy

You don’t need a huge grand startup to make your life fun and interesting. You just need to have a challenging goal that you are trying to reach, each day. You need to be able to make money doing it: that is what a good job is.

Caveat: I think Penelope is 50% insightful 50% completely nuts. The trouble is, she alternates within a single post. Insightful, crazy, insightful, crazy. So I keep reading…

Anway, this post is about what to do when you look at your life and realize your personal career trajectory and then decide to either “stay the course” or develop something else.

15 Things You Should Give Up In Order to Be Happy

I clicked on this link, expecting to see practical, tangible things. The kind of things I imagine will make me feel better if I give them up – caffeine, sugar, stressful relationships, sleeping in…

but this list is like 100% zen. “Give up labels, your need to impress others, self-defeating talk…”

Sometimes, I like to read articles that remind me happiness and minimalism is not all about denying yourself, but giving up emotional garbage, too.

Organized Bravery

During times of change, the only organizations that thrive are those that are eager to interact and change as well. And that only happens when individuals take brave steps forward.

A little Seth Godin piece that rang true for me, especially my thoughts about the future of libraries. Let’s be brave and take risks, people!

04 May 2012

just a list of books

I read this article in the New York Times a few weeks ago, a personal essay describing the author’s “Book of Books,” an aging notebook kept for over ten years in which she jots down the title of each read book. I find something romantic about that idea, but I am the type of person who finds most notebooks romantic. However, I am a woman who loses notebooks, spills things upon them, carries them in her backpack on a rainy day rendering everything she owns to become quite soggy. I could never keep a notebook in the same place that I was reading without losing it, destroying it, or leaving it somewhere odd to be forgotten.

Enter: the blog. I will never lose/abandon/forget my blog. A list kept on the info page of my ancient Livejournal, years and years before LibraryThing and Goodreads existed; it was the first time I was able to keep track. It became a habit, to read, to finish, to log on and add a line to my growing list.

My blog in its current format has slowly evolved from this habit, this process, of documenting what I read. Like Paul and her tattered BoB, it serves me in some kind of nostalgic, narcissistic way – I can look back over what I’ve read, over the years, and remind myself of the summer I read nothing but romance, the year I read The Boyfriend List 3 times, the semester I slogged through the thousands of pages of forgotten 19th Century fiction, the time I read through the Harry Potter series in two months and when I closed the 7th book, I immediately ran back to The Sorcerer’s Stone. I can make charts and graphs and count pages and genres and see my preferences and patterns over long periods of time. I can spend hours thinking about myself and my reading and what that means to me.

It’s a comfort, a pleasure, to read and to think about what I’ve read and to self-monitor and to gaze upon my accomplishments. I think that reading makes my life better, and I like to reflect on this phenomenon.

I like to think about why certain stories feel appropriate for different people, different settings, different uses.

How people move from book to book, how they decide when to put one down, how they decide which books are “best.”

I like to think about how I can help others find this same comfort that I feel when I am surrounded by lists of books.

03 May 2012

library card exhibitionist – vol. 2

Checked Out

  1. A Visit from the Goon Squad by Jennifer Egan on audio
  2. Rot & Ruin by Jonathan Maberry last school book!
  3. When Parents Text: So Much Said, So Little Understood by why haven’t I returned this?
  4. Just Kids by Patti Smith
  5. Animal, Vegetable, Miracle by Barbara Kingsolver on audio, for Lance
  6. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire by J. K. Rowling on audio
  7. Imaginary Girls by Nova Ren Sum
  8. Okay for Now by Gary D. Schmidt on audio
  9. The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson on audio, for Lance (he doesn’t like it)
  10. Selfish Reasons to Have More Kids by Bryan Caplan
  11. Contagion overdue because I left the disc in the player… gah!
  12. The Borrower by Rebecca Makkai on audio
  13. Will Grayson, will grayson on audio, because Lance just listened to it (and liked it!)
  14. Candy Girl: A Year in the Life of an Unlikely Stripper by Diablo Cody
  15. The Dip by Seth Godin
  16. The Art of Fielding by Chad Harbarch on audio
  17. Dead End by Jason Myers still dirty
  18. Level Up by Gene Luen Yang
  19. Unbroken by Laura Hillenbrand
  20. We All Fall Down by Nic Sheff

 

On Hold

  1. Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro
  2. Something Blue by Emily Giffin
  3. Nickel and Dimed by Barbara Ehrenreich
  4. Pops: A Life of Louis Armstrong by Terry Teachout So Lance will return my school library copy so I can graduate….
  5. Drift by Rachel Maddow
  6. A Practical Wedding by Meg Keene
  7. The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake by Aimee Bender
  8. Let’s Pretend This Never Happened by Jenny Lawson
  9. The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern which will likely not arrive in time for Jules’s bookclub… I will try anyway!
  10. An Everlasting Meal by Tamar Adler
  11. An Unlikely Disciple by Kevin Roose
  12. Someone Like You by Sarah Dessen
  13. Thumped by Megan McCafferty
  14. The Fallback Plan by Leigh Stein
  15. Fifty Shades of Grey by E. L. James Do I feel shamed knowing my librarian will see that this book is on my hold shelf? Yes. Did that stop me? No. I am 310 in line for 47 copies, though…

 

01 May 2012

catch the reading bug

Been thinking a lot about myself as a professional. My potential career. Where I’ve been, where I want to go.

Where libraries are. Where they are going. Where I think they should go. The librarian’s role in the community, in society, throughout history. What part of this history I’d like to play.

Job hunting, apparently, makes me more philosophical than usual.

When my information seeking devolved into navel-gazing, I found this:

Hand-cut letters, an hour or so of my life spent standing on a creaky desktop, stepping over computers.

One of my major contributions to the field.

So far.